Lately I've been doing a lot of soul searching. Part of that stems from my yoga practices....and part of it is just that I'm someone that spends a lot of time in her own head. In yoga studies, this reflection is called svadhyaya or "self-study" and is an integral part of developing new habits and practices. Basically, you try something new, you observe the effects, and then make changes as needed. Although I blogged off and on for many years, starting and stopping, starting and stopping, I always felt a bit uncomfortable with sharing my personal life (and increasingly, the lives of my children) on the internet. Not only did I worry about privacy....but it also felt a bit narcissistic.
But after a few years break, I'm back. I'm looking for a few things in this space. I'm looking to share the knowledge I've been gaining through my deepening yoga practice and studies. I'm looking for a space to hold myself accountable for the changes I want to make in life. It's damn hard to live your values sometimes - for instance, I feel pretty committed to eating healthy, organic food - and yet I'm the first one to dive into a bowl of Pirate's Booty set out on the table. And although I'm not striving for perfection, I've heard time and time again from some pretty wise people that "what we choose to focus our attention on is what we value." So maybe this blog will help me reassess those values and give me a place to focus my attention. Having those two general, self-serving goals makes me feel comfortable with this idea of blogging in a way I've never been before. Writing has always been my favorite method of self-discovery.
I pulled down most of my old material a while ago. I'm not sure why. Part of me just didn't want it on the internet anymore. Some of it's still out there somewhere. But for now, I'm looking at this as a clean slate.